sleepless week

hmmm.... haven been blogging for a week
although, i was enjoying my long week end
and
i didn't have the mood to blog is when
i heard the news tht lehman bro filed for bankruptcy
fuck~~~!!

when i went back to work on Tuesday
during the morning briefing
my colleague annouced to us tht one of our products- high note 5 was badly effected
e worst case is tht the investor wont not get back a single cent
after hearing this my whole heart sink!!!!!
WTF...
i was stunned... my heart was bleeding
my moral was gone e whole i was in e daze i cant work
it was all pple's hard earned money

and e worse is yet to come
everything was in a mess bad news keep rolling in
i was damn upset i could not breath
and so were the retail investor who bought the product
the whole thing was so demoralising
ctmrs cried for the pinch of their life time saving was gone
really, my heart goes out with them
but there is nothing we cant do now
all we hope tht the bank will give us an assurance
hoping to get back some money
so we are still waiting for for the bank's action/ news

i am feeling better as life goes on
have to acept something that has happened
praying for the better

i think i cant work in financial institutions
cos i saw pple loosing money i cant bear the pain
really, i feel sad for them
so i think i go find an admin job den hide one conrner and do filing

perhaps pple who nv buy investment or shares wouldnt understand the feeling
but it was so horrible, really
and when i was out for lunch
i feel so depressing yet i saw pple's smiling and laughter
they seemed to be perfectly ok not affected at all
are they not aware of how bad it is
or they are not concern abt this matter

sign anyway, was demoralizing
really hope tht this matter will be over soon