im not feeling right

I am feeling damn scary now cos my results will be out tmr. Im really worried cos I didnt do well for my CAs, if i didnt make it I have to take sub-paper which means I have to apply for leaves den more stress. GOD..!! how am I going to handle all these stress. Seriously, my work is killing me, destroying me. I need to re-consider of staying. Everyone in e branch has change, sometimes I really cant stand the management and the sicking damn fucking, sicking cmtrs, damn all of them. If I have the death note, all of them will deserve it!
Sigh.. I will be alonely in this branch as everyone is leaving. :( First, was ailing, next Winnie, coming soon Cleo is trfing out to IB department and Ching Ting too.. she is going to trf to Bishan branch. IM NOT HAPPY WITH MY WORK ... sometimes I just wondering why am I tortuning myself..? I shld have just leave since my heart is no longer with the branch.

I am thinking for going into government service- civil servant. To me, it shld be lesser stress comapre to banking. It is 5 day week, so I will have more time for studies. Most important, I DO NOT HAVE TO FACE ALL THE SICKING AND STUPID PPLE out there. So.. I am going to send my resume to navy..

elaine and others organised KTV tonight but I am too tired to drag myself down to orchard. They wanna to relax have fun before the results day. Well, in anyway what is to come will come, so this day will come and no matter what is the outcome I would have to accept it. Anyway, if really cant make it den no choice, go for sub-paper den. At least must clear this sem's mods, cant afford to bring forward to next sem.

HEY guys... hope we all can make it and happily promote to next sem den we'll pongtank and gossip. This is what we like to do and we are best at it.. keke.. !

If I pass all the subjects, I am able to go for a short trip with my mum or with Mr wee too, before he starts school.

GOD bless me.. cos I really need a break or else I will really go mad.
wish me good luck for tmr's result..