lonely + stressed+ sad

i feel so lonely + stressed+ sad
lonely: i feel that im all alone
but lucky i still have baby
stressed: school assignments are driving me nuts i feel like crying..
i realli need help
lucky i have dan dan
sad: so upset over wulang and qilang
ya im watching the show now..
so is baby... ...

it's a saturday

havent been regularly posting entries here
ya.. cos there is nothing interesting to blog about
school is just as usual, 3 times a week (but i skip mon's lesson)
now rushing for assignments
there are 2 of them due coming week
~ _~
sianz
...

AND
work is getting from bad to worse
ernie had left...
i miss her
working life everyday is the same,
facing a bunch of wild animals
im sorry
as a human being i cant communicate with them
HOW E HELL am i going to stay there?
i need a change...!
...
anyway, last week went to Freddie's house to celebrate ann's birthday
and also to try out the new game of wii...
wah piang eh ...
WHAT AN GREAT INVENTION man!
i didn't want to play (shy la)
and mr wee said i anti-social
im not lol..
just like i am lousy at games
and im not interested in games K
...
today, on the way back drop by at wing tai factory outlet
as the nike sales is still on..
hopefully next month will have G2000 sales
and
i bought a sweater and a sling bag (for Eugene)
...
tmr still need to stay home as i need to rush to my assignments
SIAN...
mr wee is now out with his colleagues
and neglect me ...
sad sad la...
hehehe

gonna miss them

it was an upsetting week ...
as 2 of my colleagues left us within this week
first Jason left us for another bank
den today ernie left us for another branch
im so upset..
all my good friends from this branch all had disappear
leaving me with all the domestic animals and CBs..
...

new love

Currently
im in love with this man
hehehe...

best drama ever

OH MAN... i am getting mad..
nowadays im damn emo
i just cant control my feeling
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but i'll be ok de...
hopefull

this week is my school term break...
time passes really fast!
and when school reopen i have 2 assignments to hand in
but i have yet to complete any
i am being too lazy le...
how?
but im just too tired
.
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I WANNA SLP and slp and more SLEEP~~!
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oh man!
i finished watching the drama series of Young Warriors of the Yang Clan
Damn! the show was GREAT lol
omg! i cried so much in this series!!!
it was good, but the time when they all went to war was the saddest.
it was heart breaking ... I cried and CRIED
then my mum came into and room
i was damn paiseh neh...

so sad... kind of missing a ending
and
the ending was damn lousy
i'm kind of shock wif the ending
i cant believe the 5th bro became a monk
the 4th brother isnt back, he married Liao princess
and
qilang haven been love
and was been killed during the battle with the Liao...
Keep holding on to the scarf that his wife gave him... So touching...!
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i was so affected by the show..
and i keep thinkin of them today..
OMG... im mad le...
and i told baby about, and she is just as crazy as me over them
hehehehe...
tht's y she is my baby...
: )
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yeah yeah.. meeting her for lunch tmr..
cos tmr i will be at Shenton way for my course..
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baby cya, cant wait man..

all of these rotten feelings

shitty~~!
i pon teng school AGAIN
ya.. was totally no mood
was really down
i dunno what to do next
so everyday, i just stare and console myself
dun cry
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i have a big problem here
my project deadlines are just round the corner
i have not do anything yet
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i really have no mood
my emo is in a mess
there are so many things to "fan" about
i feel like breaking down anytime
just like fann wong in the 9 pm show
i can fully understand how she was feeling
if i continue go on like this
i'll end up like her grandma in the show
siao lol... den sing opera everyday
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.
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i really end to end everything here
and run far far away
seriously, my work, relationship, studies and more
are driving me crazy
today i made alot of mistakes at work
and i just cant concentrate!!!
SHITTY...!
i cant handle.. cant....
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some tots of shitty life

shitty life~~!
i think im kind of depressed these few days
dunno why..
perhaps, PMS ba...
or am i less optimistic
seems like everything is not going smoothly
or maybe lack of that little luck
or am i too hesitant
yes, im too afraid to make decisions
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life is so difficult
no matter how hard i work,
no appreciation is being returned
no matter how thrifty i am
money is always not enough
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thinking of buy something for myself
to cheer up myself up a little
but... but.... but
come to think of that pathetic few dollars in my account
i have to think twice
and
this make me feeling even worst
more depressing... ...
life is really not easy
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although, today is the public holiday
as it is our national day- Sinagpore's 43 birthday
i shld be feeling happy enjoying the holiday
but i am not.. ...
the happy atmosphere is missing
on such occasion
yet im all alone... ...
and i hate it
i hope loneliness will go away soon
i want loneliness no more
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hence, i need to change my thinkings
and my perception towards life and pple
in order to build up the happiness that belongs to myself

国风(舞蹈) by上海舞蹈学校

OH MY GOD finally, i found this video le..
damn nice..
the awesome dance movements and the music by :
KITARO!! Kitaro-Matsuri
i just cant stop watching it
and i feel like dancing again!

08.08.08

OH MY GOD 2 more min the gone of 08.08.08

so tot of grabbing this last very moment to blog
as just got back from school haven bathe
today is the special day of 08/08/2008
and very first grand event of the century is the
2008 Olympics Beijing
first time in Asia
was watching the opening ceremony
it was a grand and specular scene
thts in china
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how abt here in sinapore?
Yes!! we have the 8.8 mill dollars of toto
but...
nv strike lol..
sad sad

OKAY
off i go watch the Olympics programs le...
nitez everyone...
and
yes
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mr wee is back from Penang le..

all about work

I have to much to say yet so little time to complain
keke..

WORK: WORK: WORK!
work hasn't been too smoothly lately
I dunno i feel so tensed up nowadays at work
the whole working environment had totally changed
as the whole structure of the management changed too
even my colleagues are also acting strangely
everyone seems to be so impatient with each other
I dunno is it because im too tired and feel stressed up and think negatively
or perhaps management is under re-structuring and everyone feel lost
hence,
the team work seems to be gone unlike it used to have
that was the time where
my master Hida, Shifu Ching Ting, Cleo, Ernie, Agatha, winnie, ailing plus a few RMs
now all of them had trf or had leave the bank
and very soon Ernie is going to another branch
damn sad..
has been working with her since I joined the bank
and she taught me alot of things
not only in terms of work and also nurture me to be a better person
now my master is on medical leave
as she has injured her spine
and might need operation
that is very serious lol!
i wish her get well soon
i miss her~!

one last thing
I really wanna to apologise to xiao mi
xiao-mi if u are reading this
"I am really sorry got you into trouble
I shouldn't ask u to help me"
i hope that she wont pick on you because of me

anyway, i really hope that things will get better
and everyone work together as a team
so that everybody work happily
so life will be beautiful

I love them

1 day in Batam

my long waited precious SATURDAY off
i wanna use this day to the maxi
therefore, mr wee planned this day to go Batam
so we set off around 645am!
yawn.. i was damn sleepy lol
i haven been sleepy well since school started
but mr said we have to be early as to maxi our day
OKAY~~!
mr wee stepped out from his house at 635 am
waited for bus 51 going to hougang interchange
as to take north-east line direct train to harbor front cruise centre
but he waited almost half an hour for the damn bloody slow bus
LOOK! time wasted!


im damn pissed off with the public transports frequency
3 times a week i have to wait at least 20 to 28 min
for the tortoise bus to take me home from SIM
sometimes it really makes me wonder
WHY?
WHY NO BUS!!
WHAT IS WRONG?

ok back to BATAM
well, nothing much in Batam
i guess it is a placce for realx as in message and spas
as for us today we just shop around


we had A&W for afternoon tea break
A&W we dun have it here
so go there must EAT!!!
almost every Singaporean goes there
A must go place and come some root beer
hehe

mr wee bought 1 dozen for his family wor..

then home sweet home
yawn... ~~!
yes, finally it's sunday tmr