its friday night and i am stuck at home. work is damn

stressful. went to see doctor as i feel a sharp in in my ear. there is nothing is wrong

with my ear drum,no swollen nothing. the doctor said that it is mostly due to stress,

lack of sleep too much tension. god.. my work is killing me. working is taking my

health and my youth, so tired work and always come home straight from work, it is

totally no life. and these few days damn super tired, so many people on MC and theose

who left behind to work is working like mad.. damn it! that days i feel like crying

lo.. really..

...give yourself a hug..

"since you had decided to stay and try out what they are offering you, just go ahead with it. And dun get emotional over things cos the bitches out there want to play you out. Stay calm amd confidence...

Get your confidence back, prepare yourself for the new change and leave that bitch alone, just do what you need to do.
"i reserved this place for you, there are other gals waiting for this position.but i turn down their boms"-- wondering it's true...? honestly speaking i am a little touched from wat she said. i Hope she is not lying to me just cos she is short of manpower.

anyway.. ...

DUN GET ANGRY AT PEOPLE's STUPIDITY.

You've grown up, be independent, and get things done in the way you want them to be. Never relied on others cos no one is going to do things for you. when you were young, yes probably your parent do everything for you. But not when u're an adult, and they still have to spoon feed you. NO WAY! shame on you..! So you have to live your life for yourself, cos if you dun help yourself no one else will. This is something cruel for being an adult.

alrite from tomorrow onwards i will start all over again. trying to adjust my mood, indeed i am not in a very good mood.

i have alot of things in my mind but i have no one to share with..

if i tell someone, he/she get irritated, said i complain too much. sigh.. maybe

perhaps, i should keep it all to myself or can come here to voice out.

... ... going into depression... ..

I am feeling so fuck up these few days. My work, my relationship everything is not working well. At home, sometimes I throw tantrum at my mom, I konw it is wrong for me to do that but I just cant help it. I feel guilty after that.I am sorry..
I really need to control my emotion or else I will burst.

Anyway, congratulations to my dear riend, Min Yi and Ah Boon for their baby gal.
I shall go visit them next week.

Tmr, will be meeting my gal friends for dinner, hasnt seem them for months or even yrs le..
but I am feeling so dead.. no excitment at all...

My life .. my happiness is gone..

Willy told me he broke up with his gal.. i ask for breaking up reason..
he said: " her grades are better than mine, she blamed me for helping her in her studies. Now she want me to leave her alone to study."
God! cant believe wat a lame excuse for breaking up.. lol...

有时候
大脑会处于一片空白
什么都不想
这种感觉还不错

有时候
身体会变得懒懒的
什么都不做
这种感觉也很好

只是
时间毕竟在前进
生活毕竟在继续

既然选择了前行
那么
必须风雨兼程

或许
这就是所谓的
人生吧

加油

农历五月初五为端午节，又称端阳节、午日节等,虽然名称不同，但各地人民过节的习俗是相差不多的。端午节是二千多年的传统习俗，是为了纪念投汨罗江 “殉国”的屈原。为了让他的尸身可以完整，人们将粽子投入水中，让鱼儿不至于饿坏了而去啃噬他，久而久之，这个习俗也就流传了下来。每到这一天，家家户户都悬钟馗像，挂艾叶菖蒲，赛龙舟，吃粽子。而吃粽子又是端午节最重要的节目，粽子理所当然地成为端午节的首要象征。

江山易改，本性难移。。。

你就是你，怎么可以要你为我而改便自己。。

改了就不再是你了。。

那就不是原来的你。。

我不可以这么自私，去阻止你的一举一动。。

我不会要你再为我作出任何的改变了。。

我认了。。 或许。。

是我们都再成长，而我们各自所接触的人，事，物 都不一样，

而使我们的思想也有了距离。。。

那。。。 就顺其自然吧。。。

生命中的人，来了又去。记住的、忘记的、也许根本不是自己能控制的。
曾经以为很重要的人，也许只是路过而已。
当一个人从你的世界慢慢消失，你会难过吗？还是根本就察觉不到，直到发现，他再也不会回来了。
身边的人来了又走，真正留下的又有几个呢？
原本很重要的人，也许根本就想不起他的名字。这时才来反省，他真的很重要吗？
也许，只有亲情是永远不会变的。也只有亲人，才不会无缘无故的离你而去。
过去的都过去了，未来还没有到来。只有现在是最真实的。
看看你身边是谁。好好珍惜和他在一起的日子吧。

醒着，走着，却依然会做梦。

当时间从指尖匆匆滑过，我握住了什么？青春、梦想还是一段段似乎被遗忘的过往？花季、雨季只在青春的记事簿上烙下了稚嫩的印记就偷偷逝去。青春青涩的雨淅淅沥沥的下着，滴落的不只是葱葱的岁月，还有每一滴晶莹剔透的梦想。

年轻让我梦着一切不可能，让我挥霍着、任性着，自私着。成长的路上，我醒着，走着，看着周围渐渐陌生的一切，听着熟悉的唠叨渐渐模糊，忽然感觉离开是那么的不舍。可是亮丽彩虹后面的世界，是我所不能预知却又渴望触摸的。




一条路，一片天，一个人，一瞬间……
时间走过，生活不会停下脚步四下张望。当，回眸的霎那，为美丽的过往照一张照片，印证瞬间的图像。一个人的飞行，天空更宽广，梦似乎也变得张扬了些许。
迷茫……也许是张狂的青春最苍白或许也是最合理的解释。
一个人，闷闷的，傻傻的，痴痴的，仰望着……
一个人的孤单，真的是一个人才能独享的乐趣。

醒着，走着，却依然会做梦。

当时间从指尖匆匆滑过，我握住了什么？青春、梦想还是一段段似乎被遗忘的过往？花季、雨季只在青春的记事簿上烙下了稚嫩的印记就偷偷逝去。青春青涩的雨淅淅沥沥的下着，滴落的不只是葱葱的岁月，还有每一滴晶莹剔透的梦想。

年轻让我梦着一切不可能，让我挥霍着、任性着，自私着。成长的路上，我醒着，走着，看着周围渐渐陌生的一切，听着熟悉的唠叨渐渐模糊，忽然感觉离开是那么的不舍。可是亮丽彩虹后面的世界，是我所不能预知却又渴望触摸的。

谁说的，“心有多大，舞台就有多大”？
有好多的羁绊，跨不出那关键的一步。
有好多的不得已，令人无法自由呼吸。
低气压，云很沉重，风暴欲来袭……
征兆？是给别人的，亦是提示自己。

不晓得到底想要怎么样？如何处理自己很烦躁的心态？
不晓得别人都在做什么？即使他们和我有着某种联系。
没必要和我商量，也没必要通知我！
因为，我就是个局外人！

向往自由 + 失落感 = 矛盾的我
而，我 ≠ 自由
自由 = 未来？
未来 = ？
…… ……

想说点什么
却言不由衷

想写点什么
却词不达意

忽然间
有点迷失了方向

在自己的世界里
走走停停
忧伤如蝶

我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻
静静看你走
一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔
是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的
不由人的
何必激动着要理由
相信你只是怕伤害我
不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了
也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了 快乐是选择

I really LOVE this song.
Starting to like it when I was in sec 2,
Dunno why Just love it...
perhaps find the lyrics very meaningful ba...

what Had I done for the day...?

Mr wee didnt meet me cos he complained being too tired wanna sleep as he wakes up at 4 plus morning for work. So today I accompany my mum out for the day. I was suppose meet her 315pm at marine parade, but I was too tired, I dozed off in the bus and I wa late... :(
Here are some pics taken on the way to bus stop, as I was going to Parkway Parade. These flowers were all taken from the road sides.
Then there was this guys walking past me and he ask:" mdm, what are u doing?"
ME:" I am taking pics of these flowers."
paster-by:" You love flowers?"
Me:" yes, of cos!"
*smile*





I love tis pic nicely taken







AT PARKWAY STOP..!

At the atrium BODY SHOP was having a sales up to 60% off. What an exciting sale, and I got myself 2 body butter, 1 body scrub and 1 firming mask.



After that, we went to shop around for a TV set. Finally, we settled down with this one, refer to below pic:


NEW TV SET.. latest model.. !

Lastly, I bought mum a necklance. She like it very much and was having a 30% off so I bought for her. But.. but.. but.. it will end up in my jellew box. Keke..!
-pic to be posted

nxt round-

I got back my results le.. Oh thank god I make it! Finally, I can got for a short break le. I clear all, meaning not so stressful next sem. GOOD!
Now im going to hunt for a new job...hopefull i can leave tht place by end of tis month.
I am feeling so relax now, and I am watching some ballet clips from youtube.. then I realise how I miss ballet..

im not feeling right

I am feeling damn scary now cos my results will be out tmr. Im really worried cos I didnt do well for my CAs, if i didnt make it I have to take sub-paper which means I have to apply for leaves den more stress. GOD..!! how am I going to handle all these stress. Seriously, my work is killing me, destroying me. I need to re-consider of staying. Everyone in e branch has change, sometimes I really cant stand the management and the sicking damn fucking, sicking cmtrs, damn all of them. If I have the death note, all of them will deserve it!
Sigh.. I will be alonely in this branch as everyone is leaving. :( First, was ailing, next Winnie, coming soon Cleo is trfing out to IB department and Ching Ting too.. she is going to trf to Bishan branch. IM NOT HAPPY WITH MY WORK ... sometimes I just wondering why am I tortuning myself..? I shld have just leave since my heart is no longer with the branch.

I am thinking for going into government service- civil servant. To me, it shld be lesser stress comapre to banking. It is 5 day week, so I will have more time for studies. Most important, I DO NOT HAVE TO FACE ALL THE SICKING AND STUPID PPLE out there. So.. I am going to send my resume to navy..

elaine and others organised KTV tonight but I am too tired to drag myself down to orchard. They wanna to relax have fun before the results day. Well, in anyway what is to come will come, so this day will come and no matter what is the outcome I would have to accept it. Anyway, if really cant make it den no choice, go for sub-paper den. At least must clear this sem's mods, cant afford to bring forward to next sem.

HEY guys... hope we all can make it and happily promote to next sem den we'll pongtank and gossip. This is what we like to do and we are best at it.. keke.. !

If I pass all the subjects, I am able to go for a short trip with my mum or with Mr wee too, before he starts school.

GOD bless me.. cos I really need a break or else I will really go mad.
wish me good luck for tmr's result..

时 间总是在不经意间就悄悄流走了,思想似乎是有点凝固了,大脑里的一切活动似乎都静止了,无论怎么努力,可是依然无用,没有人可以了解 我,他们都只关注表面的快乐!可是又有几人心里是快乐的呢?很多人都是带了面具的,当我们无意见揭开那层面具的时候,我们或许惊异,或许 不屑,或许安慰,可是,谁又会明白其中的真正的原因呢?

快乐不是长久的回忆,痛苦也不是短暂的过客,一切似乎冥冥之中自有注定,可是我们依然会为了心中的梦想而去奋斗,去奔走,直至筋疲力竭,伤痕累累,才肯罢休.

日子依然在流走,我们依然不懈努力,我想,我们如此般生活的背后一定是有故事的,即使是最不出众的人,他的故事依然很精彩,世界上不是缺少美,而是缺少发现美的眼睛,让我们努力发现那些生活中的美吧!

太阳给了我们光明,给了我们努力的方向,月亮在黑夜里为我们前行带来点点温暖,我们在白日里快乐生活,可是在黑夜里有时却是我们舔舐伤口的时间,那些被划 了伤口的地方是那么的叫人心痛,即使后来的某天伤口痊愈了,可是心伤依旧没有褪去,那些伤口会不时的隐隐做痛,也许是纪念,也许是折磨,总是会给我们一生 的回忆,一生的纪念,我在黑夜里奔跑,没有止境的奔跑,我隐约中看到前面的点点光亮,可是无论我再怎么努力,它都好象在似乎离我渐渐远去,不等我追寻的脚 步,我该如何寻找它的渐渐远去的足迹呢?

我想去那个美丽的地方,那个传说中的天堂,那里一定很美好,没有伤痛,没有回忆,没有寂寞,更没有日出日落.那个寂静美好的世界,那个快乐的天堂,我该如何找的到呢?又有谁能够指引我前进的方向呢?

在这里写下这些简单的文字，纪念过去,也为曾经的世界留下一点简单的回忆,知道有些东西值得一生回忆,可是有些东西却是该忘记的,那些东西又该如何遗忘呢?

I went to the PC show at suntec city yesterday, and got myself a camera. I got it at the price of SGD 379.00. Before discount was $399.00. The price wasnt really tht cheap but got quite a few of freebies.
I reached there around 7pm.. and was damn crowded, everyone is waiting for the last mins bargains. Actually I am an IT idiolt, I dunno wats good but I always go for the best bargains.. keke..

Finally MONDAY has past!!! After a long day, I am feeling damn tired now. TMR another day, doing remittance.. sigh.. WORK WORK WORK...! So sick of this working place, the enviroment, e people, e workload and the damn F**** ctmrs...! Some ctmr can be so unreasonable, some can be damn silly.. silly in a way they ask stupid questions. damn stupid questions.
sigh.. cant be bothered with them.. siao people...

People out there nv be difficult ctmr or else u will be cursed!!!


My NEWLY camera




ONLY @ 379.00


e freebies

男孩，你懂吗？

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉。

yeap... : ) Exams are over !!!!! feeling so relax now..
I am going to make use of my holidays...
I am going to shop and shop.. and sleeep...
MY happiness starts now... !!